Agonizing frustrations

i am deeply frustrated today,simply deeply. the funny part is i hope communism existed,there is so much partiality evrywhere,simply so much. i dont have oppurtunity to do lots of things,lots of things i am really good at,i have quality, but due to lack of oppurtunity and abundance of limitation, i cant prove it. ppl who have complete independence have every doors open for them,they dont need any other pre-requisite; funny how this independence thing always comes in between my ambitions. i feel really sorry for myself, i am tied by lead,so hard that i cant lift myself up. i lie odwn helplessly and see ppl fly by me with ecstasy , i am agonized,once more.

i want to talk about my problems,i want to share my worries with you. but i cant do that. u r so obsessed with urself, u dont have time to lend and ear to my screams which echoes amidst me. if i even say my frustrations to u, u wud simply get disgusted instead of saying two soothing words...i step back..with fear,with scars going deeper..i stare at the sky , drop of tear glistens on my cheek for a moment then dissolves...doesnt matter...does it honey?