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Shrishtikortar kache aj korjore khoma prarthona korchi....amar onk oporadh...kintu tar shashtigulo eto kothin keno? somehow amar luck bhishon kharap...mone pore gagan er kotha..he said he had immense luck..i didnt bliv in luck ...but now i do..true buddy, u do have luck....i wish u and ur girl all the luck...
ppl simply cant imagine the pangs of being a "unlucky" . hahaha...even GOD discriminates... ami kokhonoi chance nite parina. erokom kokhono hoy nai je ami cheshta na korei luck er jor e kichu peye gesi...but erokom shobshomyo hoy...cheshta kori pranpon..kintu paina.....i dont know waht to feel...who to blame...luck te amar borabor i kharap...thorughout my entire life...i pure out my best...but end result e dekha jay amar ashe pasher manushgulo cheshta na koreo amar cheye upore uthe jay...call me whatever u want...but i hate it...ami manusher shei unnoti shojjo korte parina, jei unnoti "luck" er jore prapto, jate nijer etotuku porisrom nai...
somehow today i am terribly upset...simply beyond i can comprehend ..... wheni am in melancholy, sometimes i badly want the special support...but somehow, i am disappointed..most of the time..ppl are "bz" with their "fun"
ami manushta khub odvut....nijer koshter shomoy ashe pashe manusher anondo dekhle kata'r moto khoch kore bedhe.... obossho kotha puropuri shotti noy...manusher ki anondo ki dukkho tate amar boyei gelo..kintu amar koshte ontoto karo to kichu bothered hobar kotha.. naki koshto take songkramito korena? it hurts to see that nothing bothers some ppl...really hurtz...when u r left all alone...totally alone..
je jare chay she tare payna...konokichuri kono value nai...keu mullo deyna ashole ...net result is always ZERO......Z-E-R-O
Running like something...phew...this exam,that report..this project....arghh! nah, i do love working, but i dont like working more when others neglect their jobs and still get through. one thing i simply cant tolerate is discrimination, and unfortunately, i face it every time.
Ah...sometmes a few words make u feel good even in ur worse times..the power of words truly is captivating. when i were totally down, i have been charmed by someones words..which were my driving force, which made me run with a lot of speed...but my strenghts are minimizing...i keep waiting and waiting...but i end up with a sigh..i look at the mirror....i monologue with myself..i wonder waht changed? me or other variables? i still wonder....and i wait...with losing speed...losing my mind...into the blue of depression
Academic pressure...nah they dont actually bother me much...reason? I want motion in my life..i dont want to be stagnant....i want to utilize my skills...sharpen my abilities...use my potentials to the fullest extent. Everyone doesn't excel in every fields...the key of success lies in pouring ur talents where u have strongest grip; call me nerd, call me geek, but my field is study. people raise their eye-brows, peers jeer...but i smile....because study is the only field- whose importance is accepted by one to all. music lovers have a recognition in their arena, but not to non-music lovers, same goes for sports and other fields....the point is, intelligent people are recognised and respected by simply everyone. the success ,however is not recognised by acertain group only. and so, i chose to excel in study...and love to top in my exams, to get results with flying colors and smile in content. Ofcourse, i am thankful and grateful to my creator for giving me the ability...and to some extent i heartily thanks those ppl who jeered at me,making me bound to compete ,giving me a arrogancy to defeat them...true indeed..u need grapevines...to sort out ur faults and excel to be proven extra-ordinary. Hence. i proudly label myself as a "Nerdy" scholar. Whee!
Sometimes solitude is the best companion..being a loner, somehow i enjoy solitude...it provides a feeling of serenity...like a calm wind..brushing thorugh my cheeks...i recall the saying "And no one remains tillthe end but your shadow.." ...true.... I craved for this feeling since a long time..long long time...i craved to feel the ting of serenity..i was deprived...anxiousnes and frustration engulfed me ..blurring my visions.....but i was patient...and the intrinsic reward paid-off....today cant say i am not happy...I AM! and i thank my creator for granting me such bliss...i am grateful...by heart I am happy...with my environment..with my limited independence..with my unlimited dreams..with a few persons in my small world...with the "one" special person making my world...I dont expect the sky but a scrap of it...and i am content..with my little bits...that combine to make a big picture ...envisioning my little hopes and droplets of dreams....
I am loving my life....life IS beautiful...Loving u....
Blogging is more like a virtual diary to me. Somtimes u need to share and organize your thoughts, have a monologue with your inner -self..that exactly why i am creating this blog...to have a space where i can scribble down my thoughts ...and sit face-to-face with my inner self..have a conversation. So here i roll my dice...
